Now

I haven't been here in a while, it's been a crazy time. I feel it is time to write here again. Brennan got me a new netbook, and it has made things like this much easier for me. I am so addicted to my netbook, I have berely put it down. It is a lazy Saturday afternoon with not much to do, so i thought I would come write a bit, and try to start finding a way to have writing here be part of my routine. I know I don't have an extrely interesting life, and theresnot much to read about, but I still feel like beng able to get some thoughts out there when I need to. I will be having alot more free time on subway rides to be able to type more, so I should be able to post some new ideas. Brennan had a great idea for me on here and that was to write a music blog once in a while choose an album, give it a listen, and write up an oppinnion, so I think I am going to try and do that once in a while since I have all kinds of albums on my netbook. I love saying that, lol. I feel alot more connected to today, and technology. So that is my pledge to blog world, to type here more often, and try to have a point to one one day.

My Koala

It's been a while since I have written here.... again.... But Brennan has started to write his own blog, and he has inspired me to write again. He has been talking about his chaos and serenity. I have learned so much about my own chaos and serenity because of him. He has helped me show that some of the relationships I have, or had may not be as perfect as I thought. Getting a new prespective on things really makes you be able to see things you never could before, and I thank him everyday (maybe not literally, but at least mentally) for showing me my demons, and how I can change and defeat them. He has helped me learn soo much about myself in such a short time, I can never repay him for it all. I still have alot of problems to work through, mental, physical, whatever it may be, but I know that as long as I have him by my side, I can get through anything.
I am still so young, but I know I want him with me forever. He does all he can for me, and I never thought I could ever be lucky enough to have a man who loves me as much as he does. I never thought that true love existed, but now I know it does. I have known Brennan since we were babies. I have pictures of us in diapers running around in his backyard. It is a fairytale romance, although we do have our fights, as all couples do. But I know when we fight, it only means that we will be better when it's over. He and I are so in love it can only ever get better. I cannot wait to marry him, and be his wife, and grow old with him. He has helped me learn about myself, grow, and care about things I never thought I could. I apperciate everything he has ever done for me, and I love him to death. I miss him right now while he os at work, because I can't stop thinking about him. My Koala.

"Broke into the old apartment"

So the other day, I am sitting at work, going about my usual work, when I get a call from Brennan. I knew something was up. I then get a voicemail, and texts from him, and he sounds frantic. I then talk to him, and it turns out someone was trying to break into our apartment while Brennan was inside. Scary. He called the cops, and his dad. So I left work about half an hour early, and was home by 5. When I got home he was there with his dad. I am very glad we have his dad, he always helps us when we need him most. I think that's where Brennan get his generous spirit from. He eventually left and took a few more expensive things, just in case. The cops never showed. It was weird. It made us look at our safety a little more closely. We ended up getting insurance. We were promised a new door when we moved into our building a year and 3 months ago, and yet we still haven't received it! But we have noe been promised it within a certain amount of time, and the side door which leads up to our apartment is always left open since we have alot of workers going in and out of the building due to renos. It just makes you look at people differently. My mom told me a story about how when she first lived with my dad they heard a commotion in the hall, and when they looked out, they saw a man who then asked them if he could use their phone. They let him in, and once inside, took one of their knives out of their drawer, and threatened them with it. It's scary that you can't trust some people because you can never know who is lying, and who is telling the truth. It is hard to know who is good or bad. I guess in the end you just have to trust your instincts.

How now brown cow?

Wow, I have been gone for a long time. Longer then I thought I would have been. Life has been a little hectic. After I wrote my first blog, my boyfriend took me to Niagara Falls for my birthday. What I didn't know is really he wanted to bring me so he could propose. I couldn't believe it, I was so excited and happy! So that brings me to the hectic life of wedding planning! We are going this weekend to look at a banquet hall that looks perfect, but I do not want to speak to soon, since I don't want to jinx it. If it is as good as it seems, we are hoping to be able to have the wedding on September 25th 2010. Not to hot, but still not cold. My mom and step dad are coming with Brennan and I to go look at it, since I have no idea what I should be asking, looking for, anything like that, I know nothing about weddings since I have only ever been to 2; my cousins when I was abuot 11 years old, and my mothers last summer, but she had a very special type of wedding, they held it at my step dads sisters house and had an "indian" wedding. It was beautiful, it was in early June, and the sun was shining more brightly then usual. It must have known how special a day it was for us all. This wedding had been YEARS in the making. In the end, it was perfect except for me, I get really bad migranes in the heat that make me sick to the stomach and knock me out, so right after the ceremony, I passed out for about 2 hours from heat exahustion. Not fun. I missed all of the dinner, and almost wasn't up in time for my speech. Luckily later in the day after I took ALOT of migrane medicine I felt better and was able to spend time with my mother on her very special day. I am now very excited that I can plan my own, and have have my mother by my side to help Brennan and I along in the process. I have no idea what I need, or where to find it. I am mainly excited to go dress shopping with my mom, It's something I have always dreamed of, and she is the only person that I know will be 100% honest with me as to how it looks. All in all it has been a fun couple months, and I am excited for all the things to come, and I will make sure I keep posting about the proceedings of the wedding, and mainly my marriage to an amazing man who I love very very much.
Peace and Love.

My new Blog

This is my first blog. Ever. It's kind of fun. I got the idea from my mom who has some really great ones, I look forward to reading them, and check them regularly. I have never really read any blogs before, but I know allot of people who benefit from them, like my step-dad who is an artist, it is an easy way for him to get his work out, or my mother who vents her frustrations, which I have a feeling is the main thing I will be doing here. Although I have a feeling I will be talking allot about my boyfriend, and my brand new bunny, whom we love very much.

I hope I can actually get into this whole writing for the world thing, it's kind of fun.